
I was in my living room watching TV on my laptop when the little ding from google chat rang out. It was my boyfriend back home. I thought it was going to be another update on a football game. Instead it was just this line, "A representative from AZ was shot and killed today". I was shocked and immediately thought, "why?" I went to CNN to see if there were anymore details and that's where I heard whitnesses describing the scene and about all the victims and 5 people, including the representative, who were fighting for their lives.
What really struck me though was a couple days later. The entire country was going to have a moment of silence for these victims on the day the suspect was to appear in court. I tried my best to participate, but it was during work and I was called in for a question. In times like these I have unfortunately been a part of many moments of silence for tragedies and remeberences, and I am always amazed by how it can bring even the briefest moment of comfort. It helps me remember I am not alone in my pain. That we can get through this together.
Now I find myself deperately trying to stay connected. Sure the world media is covering the events as they unfold. But this lacks the human connection I am craving. It certainly can't answer the why. But then again, I don't think anything can.
All I can do now is find my own way to help and cope. That is when I turn to the one thing that has kept me connected and given me hope since I can remember. Although I haven't done it in a while, I am still absolutely sure it will help. Tonight, I am going to pray.